a picture that brought me much laughter.

Day 9: Someone you wish you could meet

Someone I wish I could meet..

I actually wanna meet people I already know.

I wanna meet my parents when they were young. Before they met each other.

To see how they were. To see if the "good" children they said they were is true.

I wanna know who they played with and see the first day they met each other.

I love hearing stories about them but i wanna see that moment.

I just wanna go back and see not just them, but my Uncles and Aunties

and my grandparents. To the time when my generation wasnt here.

I just wanna go back in time and see them and befriend them.

And most of all to tell my grandparents that they have wonderful grandchildren.

Thats who I want to meet. My parents, when they were young.

Day 8: Your favorite internet friend

My favorite internet friend..

I dont have a favorite internet friend. Everyone is my favorite internet friend.

Being that all of my close family friends are everywhere except Vegas, I

usually keep in touch with everyone via internet, with the exception of my

family that is here with me. So in short YOU are all my faves!!! :D

Day 7: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

To you,

I hope life is treating you well with all your endeavors.

Sincerely Me.

Day 6: A stranger

Dear Stranger,

Say hi to me, im fun :)

Being able to relate to a perfect stranger makes me feel like the world isn’t so big after all..

I saw you . . You were all by yourself with your big black and orange sunglasses. We were playing volleyball in a circle that you happened to be in the outskirts of. I saw you watching us all, as if wanting to join in. Why didn’t you? You should have, instead of being alone and working on your tan. The whole two hours that we played in front of you, you just stared and tracked the ball in the sky. You nearly got hit a couple of times, and yet you still didn’t stir from your cozy lonesome chair. Young girl, you are a puzzling character to me. I hope that whatever was on your mind then is now at ease, and that you will be more sociable and talk to strangers. May you have a glorious tan.

Elementary school taught me not to talk to you.
Middle school taught me to reject your sweet offers and deny your ride.
High school taught me to proceed with caution.
Working taught me to mingle.
Life has taught me that strangers are just friends waiting to be found.
Unless you look like a effing creep and weirdo.
But until that happens,
I will remain just as much of a stranger as you are to me.

til next time fatties :)

Day 5: Your dreams

A dream is a wish your heart makes...
Here are some of my main hopeless aspirations in a nutshell.

Enjoy :D

To fly without wings

i know its ridiculous but its a dream that i will always dream. to be able to soar over the ocean and swim in the clouds is a childs fantasy. guess im a child & im lovin it.

Survive in the "Concrete Jungle"

I hear NYC is one of the most extreme cities to live in, I would love to conquer that. To eat a pretzel and a hot dog from a street vendor. To be a lame tourist and buy an "I love New York" t-shirt. Renting a run down studio thats the size of my bathroom and waving down those infamous taxi's...One day.

Star on Broadway

I know I would be great on the stage. I use to pursue that dream in high school but ruined engagements led to a dream killed. I have the projecting ability of a male "Jennifer Hudson", or so I think :) And I can make anyone laugh! I wouldnt doubt that I would make an audition and be a star.

To be called "Dad"

I would love to hear the words "Daddy" or "Dad" or "Papa" or "Pops" and so on. To have a Daddys Girl or a son who wants to be just like his Dad is priceless to me. I want to be able to share my children with the world, I want to see how my kids would look like, and if I would be a great parent. Time will tell.

Explore the world The day I travel the world and see the many colors of nature and people is the day I win a million dollars. HAHA Because seriously, you need money to do all that! hehe But WHAT a sensation that must be to experience the cliche of "a whole new world"! Seeing and hearing and eating and feeling and smelling and embracing other works of the world rather than the sweet comfort of home. How thrilling is that? All in due time.

Theres so much more that I dream, but I'll just leave it at that.

til next time fatties :)

Day 4: Your sibling (or closest relative)

Dear Siblings,

To all of my siblings, not just my immediate but also my extended.

You are all my brothers and sisters no matter what.

In this life we've come so far, and we're not only who we are

but also have each other in ourselves.

Sibling rivalry is the most feared concept in all of parenthood...

but with us, we know how to handle our situations...most of the time :)

From calling each other bro and sis to yelling at each other with fatso and annoying,

we have grown so much and learned a lot along the way.

I wouldnt have chosen any other family to be apart of because

ours is the best. Enough said :)

Someone once said, "its weird, yet cool that you all love to hang out with each other because i hate hanging out with my family..."

I just laughed. They dont understand what we have. I couldnt imagine a world

without you guys. You guys are the closest beings in my life.

Im so proud to share the same blood with you all.

We have our horrible downs and when we have them, theyre not just downs, theyre HELLA

DOWN!! but when we have our ups, the reach further than the stars.

Im happy we all hold that bond that no one else has.

I never thought when I was younger that everything would turn out the way it did.

That the once "older girls" are now mothers and now my bestest friends lol

and the "boys" have now become the Men of the family.

(we'll, im still on my way there lol)

and the kids are STILL the kids! haha seriously though, the kids are growing way too fast.

Enjoy your childhood my lil ones, for itll pass you quickly.

I never thought I'd see the day where we all go our separate ways and

have little families of own. Remember the days when we use

to all live in one house all together? *tear*

I love you my brothers and sisters. Forever and ever.

I know with all my heart that 20 years from now

we are still going to be exactly the same, beating our kids. hahaha

I wouldnt have it any other way :)

Love you guys!!!!

-johnny boy.

until next time fatties :)

Day 3: Your Parents

Dear Mama & Papa,

John and Tupou Tauta...

The reason why I strive for a better life and proud moments.

Mom and Dad, you have been the most important people in my life

and the most inspriring of all.

You have shown me how to survive in this life when you are gone and

taught me our culture and shown me how to respect and live right.

Im so thankful that Heavenly Father chose you to be my parents and to guide and protect me and to teach me right from wrong.

Ive seen you both struggle to take care of us and I hope I have that same

strength and courage youve had so that I can be strong and make the best decisions in life.

I know that Im a screw up and youre probably

wondering when am I going to get my , for lack of a better term, "shit", together and

Im telling you, I will.

I wont let you leave this world without making you proud.

I know Ive caused you such heartache with

the choices Ive made and Im sorry for being such a bad son.

I will live up to the name and make you happy that

Im your son.

I love you Mom and Dad.\

No one could ever replace you and no one can ever top you.

You are truly the best parents any kid could ask for.

Thank you for being my parents.

-your fat son :')

until next time fatties :')

Day 2: Crush

Dear Crush,

I dont have a crush. The only person I crush on is the person Im with. And if any of you know me at all, than you already know who that person is.

Im going to just jump into conclusion here and say

that todays entry is going to be somewhat...."short" :)

He knows how I feel about him.

Since there is no crush to write to then there is no blog.

So in short...

Until next time fatties :)

One of the funniest pictures I have EVER seen!

this picture is classic.

Day 1: Best Friend

Dear "Air",

So this is about my best friend huh. The term 'best friend to me is overrated. This coming from someone who has NO best friend. Its a sad day in Hollywood. HA!

Seriously, I dont have a best friend. I have many friends, but none that holds the name "Best." Other than my family and my Love, I dont have a Bestie :(

My family doesnt count, being that theyre my family, they will always be the closest ones to me.

My love Dannon is the person Im in a relationship with. Im in love with him and I do consider him one of the ONLY people who know me in and out. But he wouldnt if we werent together.

So sadly Im writing this "letter" to no one but "Air".

Sweet air, how youve been there for me since I arrived on this Earth. Nourishing my soul and replenishing my heart.

Ive had friends who I thought couldve been my best friend, but as time goes on, so do they. Im fine without a bestie though. I have too many people who care about me. So at the end My best friend is anyone who loves me.

Until next time fatties :)

start of something peculiar

So I stumbled upon this today and thought, why not? It'll help me post a blog every day for the next 30 days :D I hope you enjoy.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

For The Hell Of It…

Breathe Easily & Live Heavily

"Life will test your capacity to adapt before advancing you.. so, if you’re doing all you can, and the road still gets rough, you’re going the right way. Push."

-Gabe Bondoc

The image above couldnt be more accurate. I strive, like most people, for the better and expect the worst and hope for the best.

It may seem that the life I live is inevitably going to crash,

but I like to push denial to its max. Its not a bad thing I pressume, being that I am exuberant with every fragment of my life, so its not wrong for "being optimistic" to play a big role in my so called Film-of-Life....

So I live joyously and beautifully and with an open mind. So that I have the understanding and patience to fully make sense of my imperfect life.

So just to sum up my immeasurable thoughts......

Im not prefect, but I sure am happy.

Until next time fatties :)

just a lil sum' sum'

I told myself I wouldnt do anything like this for my blog, but I was bored and I wanted to post something and the lightbulb in my head didnt turn on, so I was left to this...enjoy.

THREE WAYS I AM STILL A CHILD:
1. I like to imagine im a superhero
2. I play make believe when no ones looking.
3.I don’t know about mortgage...

THREE WAYS I AM ALREADY OLD:
1. I dont live at home anymore :(
2. Im extremely fat.
3. Im a proud Uncle :)

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO:
1.Travel to all the Polynesian islands & Europe.
2. Star in a Broadway Musical.
3. Make my family proud.

THREE WAYS THAT I’M A STEREOTYPICAL “samoan guy”:
1. Im fat.
2. People get intimidated just by my appearance.
3. Im family oriented

THREE THINGS OTHER PEOPLE LIKE ABOUT YOU:
1. I have an amazing sense of humor

2. My family is extroadinary.
3. I love to dance.
THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My appearance.
2.I can’t explain things well when I’m arguing unless it’s written out or through a text.
3.I put myself down a lot, I’m so hard on myself
THREE PARTS OF YOUR ETHNICITIES:
1. 75% Tongan & 25% Samoan, nothing less, nothing more.

2. I was raised Samoan with sprinkles of Tongan influence.
3. Im AMERICAN, common misconception is that I cant speak English and that I was born in the islands.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1.Ghosts and Ghoulies
2. My dads RAGE.
3. Losing a memeber of my family.

*special: Riding on 'E'
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Cellphone
2. Food
3. Water

THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX (OR SAME) THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Sense Of Humor
2. Hair
3. Respectful
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. Get skinny again.

2.Disrespect elders
3. Play football, i was forced to play, its not that i dont like it, its just not for me. I love the sport though. I just suck at it.

THREE CAREERS YOU ARE CONSIDERING:
1. Writer
2. Broadway Performer
3. Comedic Entertainer (like on SNL or something)

until next time fatties :)

be strong, carry on...

Todays thought was inspired sadly by the postings of my family members. My Aunt is in the hospital as I type. Im worried about her, but having faith that she' ll be fine and have a speedy and healthy recovery. Love you Aunty Pola.

The random thought that triggered my urge to blog was about growing older and losing the ones you love (not that I think we're going to lose my Aunt). Just that its a thought that Im sure pretty much everyone thinks of at least once.

I try not to think about it at all because just the idea of losing anyone I hold dear to my heart makes me travel in deep depression and sadness. So I always try and be optimistic and not take in that one day Im gonna lose someone, everyone.

I dont know what Im going to do when its time for my parents to return to our Heavenly Father. I know its inevitable but Ill be lost without them. Same goes to every single person in my family.

I want to be gone before anyone passes so that I wont have to deal with the deniability that someone has passed. I know its pathetic and cowardly but I wont have the strength to say "goodbye for now."

But I know, that one day, we will all return back to our Heavenly Father. One by one. And I'll see everyone again. Its that faith that I have and hold to that'll get me by and carry on with life.

So for now, Live, Love, Learn and have faith.

until next time fatties.

Poison.

You aint right take me high
Then that high it subsides
And my body flat lines
Then you come to revive
Wait wait wait I’m alive
But how long will it last
Will it all come crashing down?
How many doses am I needing now?
What’s the prognosis will you be around?
Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my heart down...