Friday, December 3, 2010
Make Sense To Me
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
internet junkie
Day 14: Someone you’ve drifted away from
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
New Beginnings
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Day 13: Someone you wish could forgive you
Monday, August 9, 2010
Day 12: The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Monday, August 2, 2010
Day 11: A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Friday, July 30, 2010
Day 9: Someone you wish you could meet
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Day 8: Your favorite internet friend
Monday, July 26, 2010
Day 7: Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Day 6: A stranger
Say hi to me, im fun :)
I saw you . . You were all by yourself with your big black and orange sunglasses. We were playing volleyball in a circle that you happened to be in the outskirts of. I saw you watching us all, as if wanting to join in. Why didn’t you? You should have, instead of being alone and working on your tan. The whole two hours that we played in front of you, you just stared and tracked the ball in the sky. You nearly got hit a couple of times, and yet you still didn’t stir from your cozy lonesome chair. Young girl, you are a puzzling character to me. I hope that whatever was on your mind then is now at ease, and that you will be more sociable and talk to strangers. May you have a glorious tan.
Elementary school taught me not to talk to you.
Middle school taught me to reject your sweet offers and deny your ride.
High school taught me to proceed with caution.
Working taught me to mingle.
Life has taught me that strangers are just friends waiting to be found.
Unless you look like a effing creep and weirdo.
But until that happens,
I will remain just as much of a stranger as you are to me.
til next time fatties :)
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Day 5: Your dreams
Here are some of my main hopeless aspirations in a nutshell.
I hear NYC is one of the most extreme cities to live in, I would love to conquer that. To eat a pretzel and a hot dog from a street vendor. To be a lame tourist and buy an "I love New York" t-shirt. Renting a run down studio thats the size of my bathroom and waving down those infamous taxi's...One day.
Star on Broadway
I know I would be great on the stage. I use to pursue that dream in high school but ruined engagements led to a dream killed. I have the projecting ability of a male "Jennifer Hudson", or so I think :) And I can make anyone laugh! I wouldnt doubt that I would make an audition and be a star.
I would love to hear the words "Daddy" or "Dad" or "Papa" or "Pops" and so on. To have a Daddys Girl or a son who wants to be just like his Dad is priceless to me. I want to be able to share my children with the world, I want to see how my kids would look like, and if I would be a great parent. Time will tell.
Explore the world The day I travel the world and see the many colors of nature and people is the day I win a million dollars. HAHA Because seriously, you need money to do all that! hehe But WHAT a sensation that must be to experience the cliche of "a whole new world"! Seeing and hearing and eating and feeling and smelling and embracing other works of the world rather than the sweet comfort of home. How thrilling is that? All in due time.
Theres so much more that I dream, but I'll just leave it at that.
til next time fatties :)
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Day 4: Your sibling (or closest relative)
Monday, July 12, 2010
Day 3: Your Parents
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Day 2: Crush
Friday, July 9, 2010
Day 1: Best Friend
start of something peculiar
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 —Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
For The Hell Of It…
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Breathe Easily & Live Heavily
Saturday, July 3, 2010
just a lil sum' sum'
1. I like to imagine im a superhero
2. I play make believe when no ones looking.
3.I don’t know about mortgage...
1. I dont live at home anymore :(
2. Im extremely fat.
3. Im a proud Uncle :)
1.Travel to all the Polynesian islands & Europe.
2. Star in a Broadway Musical.
3. Make my family proud.
1. Im fat.
2. People get intimidated just by my appearance.
3. Im family oriented
1. I have an amazing sense of humor
3. I love to dance.
THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My appearance.
2.I can’t explain things well when I’m arguing unless it’s written out or through a text.
3.I put myself down a lot, I’m so hard on myself
THREE PARTS OF YOUR ETHNICITIES:
1. 75% Tongan & 25% Samoan, nothing less, nothing more.
3. Im AMERICAN, common misconception is that I cant speak English and that I was born in the islands.
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1.Ghosts and Ghoulies
2. My dads RAGE.
3. Losing a memeber of my family.
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Cellphone
2. Food
3. Water
1. Sense Of Humor
2. Hair
3. Respectful
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN’T DO:
1. Get skinny again.
3. Play football, i was forced to play, its not that i dont like it, its just not for me. I love the sport though. I just suck at it.
1. Writer
2. Broadway Performer
3. Comedic Entertainer (like on SNL or something)
Friday, July 2, 2010
be strong, carry on...
Poison.
Then that high it subsides
And my body flat lines
Then you come to revive
Wait wait wait I’m alive
But how long will it last
Will it all come crashing down?
How many doses am I needing now?
What’s the prognosis will you be around?
Or am I just another victim of an assassin that broke my heart down...
Saturday, June 26, 2010
my bad
UUGGGGHH
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
the want to be called...
Friday, June 18, 2010
I Woke Up
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
I Just Cant Help it
time I watch it, in my head my name is "JOHNNY
KARDASHIAN" hahaha I imagine myself shopping and
drinking and being on photoshoots and swearing at my
mom. Theyre a funny family, but in reality I wouldnt want
to be part of their family. I wouldnt change mine for the
universe. I believe that if a camera crew followed my
family and I around all day, that our show would be a big
success. We have drama and undeniable laughs that
always keeps everyone wanting more. I have no idea why my mind thinks the way it does,
but if it didnt, then I probably would be the most boring person ever. So be glad Im the way I
am ;)
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
At the end of the day, Im still fat.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
wish I were a better man..
I am a man who is Samoan. I am a man who is Tongan. I am a man who is American. I am a man who is California born. I am a man who is Here & There raised. I am a man with faults. I am a man with desire. I am a man with needs. I am a man in Love. I am a man who is Loved. I am a man with Family. I am a man with friends. I am a man who is overly sensitive. I am a man with brute strength. I am a man who cares. I am a man whos favorite color is All Shades of Green. I am a man whos attitude is “Just”. I am with an incredible sense of humor. I am a man who can get by. I am a man with sin. I am a man with hunger. I am a man with talent. I am a man with smarts. I am a man with tricks. I am a man with so much more…
I always try and stay consistent with the persona I portray to the world, but I
know better. I know that you cant always stay the same person your entire life.
I feel that if I change any part of my being, Ill be less accepted than I already
am. With all the portaits of my soul flowing with the wind for the world to see, I
still have the gut feeling that the world still doesnt know the true man that I am.
Soon though, soon…
Moment of Honesty
“you give me a feeling that I never felt before and I deserve it, I think I deserve it. It’s becoming something that’s impossible to ignore and I can’t take it…”
Sometimes I think quoting a love song is ridiculous but then sometimes theres no other way to express your feelings.
I use to believe that being in love is like fools gold, when u find it youve completely fallen for its beauty and worth but when it unfolds, its nothing but a souvenir. Im proud to say that I no longer hold that belief. Im in a type of ‘love’ that mostly no one understands and I could care less if no one agrees with it. It is my life right? I know Im probably gonna get a lot of SHIT about this but its nothing I cant handle.
have u ever fallen in LOVE with your best friend?
I have. Im glad I did. So what if my best friend is a guy, love is love right? I dont know how I kept it up, lying to myself for 20 years. I am who I am, PERIOD. but do YOU know who I am? Im a man that is with another man. I hate to use the phrase “gay” but what else describes it. I dont think that I am “gay” but to the world thats what I am. I still find females attractive and I dont look at guys that way, only the one Im with. STRANGE, isnt it? Well thats who I am.
Someone told me once, that Heavenly Father created ‘Adam & Eve’ not ‘Adam & Steve’…
Regrettably, I didnt respond. They were right. I know Im livin in sin but is being happy and being yourself a SIN? I honestly believe that Heavenly Father wants me to be HAPPY and to be MYSELF and right now, IM HAPPY. Wheres the happiness if I hid myself away from the world, my TRUE self? There is none if I did. So therefor Im doing what I need to do to be happy.
just another random thought that continues endlessly, a thought about my love & my life…
its like a sour patch
So my brother Benny
gave me the idea for this “segment”…he was
in the making of another song (hes very talented) and I couldnt stop
thinking of the cliche “if walls could talk…”
If all the walls that surrounded me when I was growing up could talk, they
would tell a never-ending story of the battles and tribulations my family and
I went through…it was like a sour patch candy. Sour when you start out,
but sweetens when you follow through…
Our walls have been overlapped wih everlasting tears and
unforgettable laughs and I will never in my life, PAINT over them..
Lettering...it can be life.
“6”…That was my number.
After living the life Ive lived for the past 22 years, I STRONGLY believe that I have the persona, charisma and attitude of a “26” letter name..
Im glad Im finally starting this, its something I shouldve done so long ago. This will show you why i believe so strongly about being a “26” letter name…
What number are you?